Jennifer Lopez reflected on past bad romances in her upcoming memoir \u201cTrue Love\u201d. She said, \u201cI\u2019ve never gotten a black eye or busted lip, but I have been in relationships where I felt abused one way or another: mentally, emotionally, verbally.\u201d \n\u201cI know what it feels like for your soul to be diminished by the way your loved one is treating you,\u201d she continued. \u201cEvery day that you don\u2019t walk out that door, every day you accept things in your partner and in yourself, is a day that you\u2019re saying it\u2019s okay.\u201d
\nThe \u201cAmerican Idol\u201d judge was previously married to Cuban waiter Ojani Noa, actor Cris Judd, and then singer Marc Anthony. She was also once engaged to Ben Affleck. She recently broke up with Casper Smart whom she dated after splitting from her third husband Marc.
\nJ.Lo didn\u2019t give name to any of her abusive exes, but she did talk about her failed marriage with Marc. \u201cAnybody looking from the outside in would have thought my life was great,\u201d she said. \u201cI had a husband and two beautiful children. I was on \u2018American Idol\u2019 and my new single \u2018On the Floor\u2019 had gone to number one all over the world. What people didn\u2019t know was that life really wasn\u2019t that good. My relationship was falling apart and I was terrified.\u201d
\nShe decided to end their marriage after having a panic attack during a photo shoot. \u201cIt was one of those moments when you\u2019re so scared you can\u2019t even scream. In a blur of fear and panic, I looked at (her manager) Benny (Medina) and my mother and blurted out the words: \u2018I don\u2019t think I can be with Marc anymore.\u2019 Then I burst into tears,\u201d she recalled.
\nThe \u201cIdol\u201d judge said she got Marc\u2019s blessing for her book. \u201cHe read it and said, \u2018Wow, I didn\u2019t realize you were going through this whole journey.\u2019 We try to be supportive of each other. We feel that\u2019s the best thing for our kids,\u201d she explained.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"