Nicole Scherzinger has revealed how her secret eight-year fight with bulimia nearly destroyed her.\nThe stunning former X Factor judge was riding high as lead singer of US girlband sensations The Pussycat Dolls but, in private, was going through hell. At one point her battle with the sinister eating disorder left her passed out in a hotel room in the Mediterranean.
\nShe told Cosmopolitan magazine: \u201cI had started losing my voice, I couldn\u2019t sing at shows, and then I remember my manager finding me passed out.
\n\u201cI thought, \u2018I\u2019m going to lose everything I love if I don\u2019t love myself\u2019. One day when you feel you\u2019ve reached the end, you just say, \u2018I\u2019m not doing this any more\u2019. \u201cIt\u2019s sad to see how I wasted my life. I had such a great life on the outside, the Dolls were on top of the world but I was miserable on the inside. I\u2019m never letting that happen again; you only get one life \u2013 I was 27 only once.\u201d
\nThe stunner opened up in an interview with the mag, and showed off her stunning figure in some seriously racy outfits. In one, the brunette beauty has gone for double denim and shows off her stunning legs in the tiny hot pants, with just a bit of cleavage, while the next is a stunning backless gown – flaunting a much more elegant side. Nicole, now 36, only started getting therapy after leaving the band in 2009 and said she was \u201cashamed\u201d of keeping her addiction to binge eating and making herself sick from her family and friends.
\nShe told the mag: \u201cI knew it wasn\u2019t normal or healthy. I was hurting myself through this cycle of disordered eating. It was my drug, my addiction. It\u2019s an endless vicious cycle.\u201d
\nNicole has since overcome bulimia. But she said: \u201cIt still is hard, and thinking about it I try not to well-up\u2026 It is such a horrible paralysing disease and it was such a dark time for me.\u201d
\nNicole also told of how she overcame her shyness through shows such as X Factor. \u201cFor me all my smiles and confidence are a triumph because it came from a broken place.\u201d She also admitted to having a \u201ccrazy romantic\u201d relationship with F1 ace Lewis Hamilton , 29, but would never cut back on her own career to spend more time with him.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"